booooooooored

Nobody gives a crap about reading some random person's blog. The only reason why people bother reading this page is that they're personally invested in it. I'm not whining, just thinking about that.

In other news, I'm bored out of my mind. I'm sure I could find something to do...at least, I was sure twenty minutes ago. Now I'm just sitting around here waiting for something to happen, some opportunity to cross my path. I supposed I should be grateful for some solace. But seriously, I'm just boooooored. It's Saturday night, and I don't have rounds! I should be out doing something memorable. Or at least amusing.

And now that I've said all that, hopefully something will happen.

I suppose I could make something happen. But I don't think I have enough courage to do so. And thus by thinking that I don't have the guts to go out and make something fun happen, it turns into a self-fulfilling prophesy. Oh bah.

It's 6:06 am...

...and I'm finally going to bed. I think this is officially my longest night of rounds ever. Elisabeth and I had to kick out 14 or so people from rooms they weren't supposed to be in. New record. We also had a CDS. That wasn't fun. The kids were super compliant, though, which will definitely help them.

I hope I didn't do anything wrong. I'll find out later.

And now, I'm going to bed.

Happy Halloween! :-)

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!


It's my favorite holiday. Always has been. Maybe it's because I'm a closet goth and love spooky things. And because it's in the middle of Fall, my favorite season.

I'm gonna be a witch, especially once I finish up hemming my costume today. I've also got rounds, so come stop by and say hello, because sadly, I can't leave Sheridan tonight. :-( Oh well, it'll probably help me make good life decisions.

WHOOOO!!!!!! :-D

A hope for home...

Ugh, I'm so tired, and I don't want to be. If I go to bed now, i can get ten hours.


Screw that.


*headdesk*

I should just fall asleep for a while, and wait for all of this to be over. Done with everything for a while, just get in my little badass spaceship and fly close to the speed of light so i can go forward in time. Yay Einstein. He's one of my heroes. :)

I really just want to go get obliterated, hook up with some guy and have a boatload of fun that I won't be able to remember in the morning. Morality sucks butt sometimes. Sad thing is, I have a pretty good idea where I could go do that. But I think I care too much to not care.

Maybe I'm reaching my breaking point. Or at least, this might be my way of flirting with the edge again. I seem to like to do that. I just want to...

There we go. Screamo Metal goodness makes things better.

Well, I am glad that people think highly enough of me, and care enough to let me know or give me a little kick.

But for now I'll just veg out to A Hope for Home.

"The race is on and here comes..."

Do you ever get the feeling where you do something, but then doubt it later and then worry extensively about whether or not it will blow up in your face? Yeah. I thought so.

But on a different note.

I feel incredibly busy lately. So much is happening, so much feels like it's converging on a single point (me, to be self centered). However, I still feel incredibly alive. Sprinting through life. It's like a runner's high. As long as I've got good friends who will let me stop and catch my breath, I'll be fine.





"....and the winner loses all."

Bittersweet Symphony

Hmm, yes, I feel bittersweet.

I'm having recollections of memories from last year, and the year before. I miss it, them.

I found the goodbye card the staff from 360 gave me while cleaning. Oh man, that was a trip. I'll have to stop in at Christmas and say hi. Plus I love their pizza. :) I want to show Dave and Joey that I'm not as much of the naive kid I once was.

Tony told a story in youth ministry that reminded me of Derek. That song, "Dig", by Incubus reminds me of him. I miss hanging out with him and Nick last year, staying up late in the honors lounge. Having conversations about life and everything in it, BSing homework. I miss it. I miss him, I miss how life was back then, the friendship and even the drama. I think about this time last year, what we were all doing...having a Saw marathon, back when all the crap started. Halloween...*shakes head* This year I'll be on rounds. Quite different from what I was doing to pass the night last year. I still care about him a lot. There are so many thoughts, memories...I liked the person he was when we were talking all night. I thought I saw some potential in him, but I guess what really matters are the choices people make. He went one way, I went another. Even last year when we were still pretty tight. I mean, sure, I was bitter...no wrath like a woman scorned, or something like that, right? But he still meant a lot to me, and he's still the only person that'll tell me that other people think I'm an ass or that I'm just whining or whatnot. I really, really wish we could be better friends this year. But I can't compromise some things...I guess I'm just left to doing what I can to show him that my door is always open, in case he ever changes his mind about his lifestyle. Until then, I'll bail him out when I can, or at least, give him a heads up. haha, good times. Oh well.

I'd just really like to have my friend back.

But no use reminising about the past if it won't help you in the future. But damn.

Renovations

New Layout.

Definitely a lot lighter than the old one, which in a way reminded me of staring off into a black hole of nothingness. Depressing.

So here we are. :-)