Bittersweet Symphony

Hmm, yes, I feel bittersweet.

I'm having recollections of memories from last year, and the year before. I miss it, them.

I found the goodbye card the staff from 360 gave me while cleaning. Oh man, that was a trip. I'll have to stop in at Christmas and say hi. Plus I love their pizza. :) I want to show Dave and Joey that I'm not as much of the naive kid I once was.

Tony told a story in youth ministry that reminded me of Derek. That song, "Dig", by Incubus reminds me of him. I miss hanging out with him and Nick last year, staying up late in the honors lounge. Having conversations about life and everything in it, BSing homework. I miss it. I miss him, I miss how life was back then, the friendship and even the drama. I think about this time last year, what we were all doing...having a Saw marathon, back when all the crap started. Halloween...*shakes head* This year I'll be on rounds. Quite different from what I was doing to pass the night last year. I still care about him a lot. There are so many thoughts, memories...I liked the person he was when we were talking all night. I thought I saw some potential in him, but I guess what really matters are the choices people make. He went one way, I went another. Even last year when we were still pretty tight. I mean, sure, I was bitter...no wrath like a woman scorned, or something like that, right? But he still meant a lot to me, and he's still the only person that'll tell me that other people think I'm an ass or that I'm just whining or whatnot. I really, really wish we could be better friends this year. But I can't compromise some things...I guess I'm just left to doing what I can to show him that my door is always open, in case he ever changes his mind about his lifestyle. Until then, I'll bail him out when I can, or at least, give him a heads up. haha, good times. Oh well.

I'd just really like to have my friend back.

But no use reminising about the past if it won't help you in the future. But damn.