Oh Jeez.

David told me that for the past few summers he's been meaning to ask me out, but something always got in the way. He tells me this as he's closing down Subway, right before he has to kick me out.

I think I'm going to die.

Ok, so what am I feeling, what am I feeling...

I've always liked him. But, I convinced myself that it would never happen, so I moved on to other people. But now that he's said this, it's all reawakened.

I think he's much better for me than Nathan. And I was all ready to let Nate go. But my problems:

1. I'm dating Nathan. My dating Nathan caused numerous issues for me this year, yet I seriously believe that it was a good experience for me in the end. We've been going for eight months. He works a lot, so we don't get to do a lot together. He's also an intensely private person, so I don't know what goes on in his head. He's an agnostic, for lack of a better classification, whereas I'm Catholic. We're both clarinetists, though. He's a great listener, a wonderful shoulder to cry on. And a romantic gentleman when he thinks about it. The thing is, our relationship has been on a downward spiral for a while now. I'm breaking up with him when I'm leaving for Maryland, which is why I didn't call it quits earlier. But tonight it seemed as if he finally realized that I really am leaving in less than two weeks.

2. I'm moving to Maryland. David will be in Washington, I in Maryland. The reason why I'm breaking it off with Nathan (mainly) is that I don't think it's fair to either of us to be tied to someone while we're starting this new chapter of our lives. So as much as I want to, I really can't see how I can justify trying to make a LDR work with David.

He's not a Catholic, but he IS a christian.
He's a music major, but he IS a musician.
He likes me, and I like him.
Because he's a Christian, a Christian who really is into his faith and respects my beliefs as a Catholic, I could see him as a possible potential husband. (Bonus points!!) My parents make it work, right?
LDR.
LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS DON'T WORK.
But Kristie and Justin make it work.
But they still have issues, and Kristie thinks she's really in love.

AArRGGg!

I think I shall sleep on this. And pray on it or something.

It's not like we're not going to still be friends. I have no danger of losing him, our friendship. So I should buck up, screw any thought of a LDR and check back in next summer, staying open with eachother in the meantime.

Right?