Proof. Of what? I'll get back to you on that.

I kissed David.

Three times.

Yes, I still have a boyfriend. Yes, he's only in name. But, yes, Lady Rain did indeed cheat on her boyfriend.

Once a cheater always a cheater? I'll get back to you on that.

So, I'll let you in on the gory details.

Walk one, before we let eachother know of our mutual feelings, we take a walk from his house to the lake park and back. It's nice, a bit weird, but nice all the same. I let him know that I definitely had feelings for him four years ago. But that was so painfully obvious, I'm sure he knew. We talk about how he doesn't feel like he is able to open up to a lot of people, I tell him that I'm always willing to listen. yeah, stars are beautiful that night, and we hug good bye.

One night we agree to go out for a walk around town after we both get off of work. We talk about stuff, things are nice. Mostly we discuss issues I've been having, most of the spiritual nature, some of the social nature and whatnot. It's just nice to be in each other's company. Hug good bye.

Friday. He gets off of work, I call him, we make plans to go on another walk. We walk around, the sky is clear, we head towards the stadium. The sky is clear again and the stars are beautiful. Again. It's shooting star season. We talk and stuff, and he comments on how it's cold. One thing leads to another and we're cuddling on the 20 yard line by the visitor's lockroom side. Booyah. He smells nice. Hug goodbye and yeah. Life's pretty good. Oh, and he says, "I'm glad the stars were out tonight." I melt.

Saturday, we make plans to go to the stadium to watch episodes of The Office on one of our laptops and the stars. Before things get going I get a call from Kayla. long story short, I end up leaving him and having a nice talk with kayla. We needed that anyway. He goes to a kegger and doesn't drink instead. Booyah. Not.

Sunday night, the last night we can see each other. I leave Friday morning for MD, he left today with his family and a good chunk of our friends to Mason Lake, a family camping spot 2.5 hours north. So the whole gang is over at David and his brothers' house, just goofing off and having a good time before we all go our separate ways until Christmas. Midnight rolls around, most people leave. Around 1am, it's just me, the brothers, and Nathan, my BF. Nathan is apparently spending the night there so he doesn't have to drive early in the morning; he lives a half hour away. I say goodbye to them and David talks about hanging out with some college buddies for a bit. I walk down the steps, and turn to go to my car, but wait a sec and pretend to be checking the messages on my cell. I was really just waiting for a chance to say goodbye to David in private. He walks down, we're behind the hedge, and he says "You got time for a walk?" I grin, and agree to a short one. My mom was already asleep, so there was no way she would get pissed about how late I stayed out. We end up taking both of our cars over to the stadium so that no one would be suspicious. We start walking around the track, talking out stuff about our future, and the technicality of Nathan's status. "In name only, though" and other things, mostly him telling me how I'm going to love college life. After a lap around the track we go out onto the green, over by the 20 yard line. Again. We talk about stuff, mostly leaving and all that jazz. And, of course, I couldn't turn down his "One last cuddle?" So yeah. we did for a bit. It makes me wonder what else happens on that field in the off season. :) We're walking back, arms around eachothers' waists, and he walks me over to my car. He gives me a hug. I say, "Well, I guess this is goodbye." And I go to give him a peck on the cheek, and he catches me halfway. I tell him that that was lame and we go for a good one. I say "wow", he says "hey, you initiated it, not me." We kiss again, I say "I'm breaking all the rules here" He laughs, hugs me tight and says "It never happened". We leave.

He might be coming home to visit the week I'm back in October. That would be epic. If not, that's okay, because we'll see each other at Christmas.

We're going to take things as they come, figure out what to do next as the moments present themselves. And I'm fine with that. For now we both agreed to just spend our time making out with drunk people at parties, because even if we don't drink it won't matter because the other people won't remember in the morning, anyway. :D Yeah, like that's going to happen.

I know it's cheating on nate, but I'm glad I did it. I gave me a bit of closure to that part of me that still likes him. Hell, I may love him. Only time will tell. I've waited four years for last night/this morning. I'm sure a few months will be a piece of cake. :) All I know is that anything really can happen, and that I'm never going to think of the 20 yard line the same way again.