Whining

I DON'T want to go back.

I'm not going.

You can't make me.

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I got cheated out of part of my break, and I want a refund. Sadly, that refund is going to come in three days of Winter RA Training, including two hours of "Bias Related Incident Response". Bullshit. I really can't stand diversity training. Oh, I think it's all well and good, definitely necessary and everyone should go through it to become an RA, blah blah blah. But I personally hate it. I don't have to like it.

And this SO ISN'T FAIR. OH! mY god. First the university shaves a week off Christmas break, then I have to come back early for RA training, THEN I decide that not going home for four fucking and a half months is a good idea, AND THEN I get stuck in FREAKING DENVER for THREE FREAKING DAYS, not knowing if I'll get on a plane for half of that, while waiting in lines for two hours at a time with pissy people (and awesome people, but I can't really talk about them in a rant, now, can I?), and THEN my parents end up driving me the three freaking hours home from Seattle, so I get home FINALLY at 1am Dec 24th. And when I got home, everyone had been snowed in for days and were cranky and ornry, so I had to work overtime on the happy to make everyone else have fun, and really all I want is my three days back.

Three more fucking days I was cheated out fo the small allottment of break my pimp Reslife gave me off. GAWD. FUCK taht shit. I want to stay here, so I'm not going. Dammit. I'm pissed, I'm sick and tired of digging deep to find the fucking bright side so I don't go crazy and add to it, so I can enjoy what little fucking time I have.


FUCK that shit.

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I swear, if it wasn't for the fact that I'm aching to see Doug, to see Sio, Benitez, and even Cliff too, I'd be kicking and screaming as much as I was when I first had to fly out to god forsaken Baltimore.

In twelve fucking hours I'll be taking off. MY GOD. I don't believe it. I refuse. NO.

But the kicker is that I can't not go back. I love those people, that world, that life way too much to stay here.