Thoughts on Mortality

I really feel like there's a black cloud named Death hovering over the Mount. Thus far I've been lucky (or blessed, depending on how you look at it) with avoiding it personally. But it's hit others, my friends, and their loved ones, some more than once. My heart aches for them.

So all of these events of late have caused me to think about it. It's like Dr. Conway said - you better think about these issues now, because if you'll have to face them all eventually. I run the scenarios in my head, what would happen if my family died, one of my friends. To think that people go through this every day, people are dying and are being born right this very minute, alone and surrounded by loved ones...

And I've come up with at least one idea. I know that friendship, love, never dies. I refuse to believe that it does. It comes down to love, the most indestructible, infallible and intangible power in the universe. This is why I believe that God must be love. Pure love. I can worship and pledge my entire being to a being that's Love. It makes sense to me. A love so real that it has its own consciousness, it's own will, a will that is always to love, and to love fully. To live in accordance with that kind of love is the highest life a human can strive for. Always, always strive for that perfection, because love is most important. It's all that matters, in the end. It's the one thing I can always count on, the love of my family, friends, and that love is my God.

I keep thinking of the "This I Believe" thing NPR has. I believe in love.

And that music is an auditory manifestation of some aspect of the perfect love. Whether it be its absence, joy, happiness, passion, anger at its violation, whatever. It's all there.

I feel like this is some weird take on theology. I haven't thought it all through yet, though. I'll get back to you when I do.

But yes, live for love. Suck the marrow out of life, while you're at it. Because this is the one shot we've got, and I'm a quarter dead. I only get to live this long three more times before I find out if I'm right, or if it even matters.

I don't have much more to say just yet. I'll get back to you when I do.